Saturday, June 30, 2012

Titanium

You shout it out,
But I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud not saying much
I'm criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium

Cut me down
But it's you who have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud not saying much.....

Friday, June 29, 2012

It's okay to be sad when life doesn't go as planned. I think those who are truly successful don't "work hard and tirelessly" to achieve their success. That's bs. They work smart, not hard. And that's something I'm trying to get to. Work efficiently, not spam and hope everything works out.

Am I the only weird person who gets flashbacks of embarrassing/facepalm and failure moments? meh. At least they are a constant reminder of what I have to change to become a better person and not stay stagnant.

I've been asked many times what I want to be, and what my dream is. I think I might have finally gotten it. I want to be someone where people will remember me as someone who left the world with no regrets.


...the three paras above don't link at all...my thoughts are getting more jumbled up as days go by......

Thursday, June 28, 2012

So my exams finally ended. Who knew taking just 4 exams would be way more draining than taking 6 in Secondary school... dammit I rather do sec 4 eoys all over again. First time I spent 3 weeks studying for an exam, and it's only worth 15% of the year. pfft.

Is it really worth it to spend so much time on it? I've heard many saying that results aren't that important...the best part is to enjoy the process...but ultimately isn't everyone just gonna look back in your school days and look at your grades? I don't see how someone will be hired just by saying he enjoyed his time thoroughly in school.

And I might be mistaken, but the whole exam system is quite full of flaws. I've never actually failed a test that's counted before in my life, and if I try hard enough I get good enough results (to satisfy myself, my parents don't seem to care that much lol). But it seems to reward hard work more than anything else. Hell, if I spent an hour or two everyday studying/doing homework I would probably get better results. It's just that I get lazy, buck up just before the exam, and then proceed to forget everything until the next exam comes along. I mean, even if I did reasonably well for any exam, say math, it doesn't mean I'm good in math. I just put in the effort to understand the format of the exam and how to answer the permutations of questions they will throw at you. If I took some general math test, I'd probably fail if I didn't study for it. Getting good grades in a subject doesn't prove your aptitude in that subject at all imo.

So if it doesn't prove anything why the heck are the grades even used to judge us for scholarships, jobs and all the random opportunities that come our way? The only they tell about a person is whether he put in the effort. I know there are few who do their best and get sub par grades; but I still believe with the right guidance and hard work everyone should get what they want.

I don't know. The more exams I go through, the more cramming and mugging cycles I go through, it seems like the whole affair just seems to have less and less meaning. And I still have some major, apparently 'life-changing' A levels to study for.

Sigh. Just becoming another jaded teenager who has had too much of the education system.

Saturday, June 23, 2012


你怎么舍得我难过
对你的思念是一天又一天, 
孤单的我还是没有改变, 
美丽的梦何时才能出现, 
亲爱的你好想再见你一面. 
秋天的风一阵阵地吹过, 
想起了去年的这个时候, 
你的心到底在想些什么, 
为什么留下这个结局让我承受. 
最爱你的人是我, 
你怎么舍得我难过, 
在我最需要你的时候 
没有一句话就走, 
最爱你的人是我, 
你怎么舍得我难过, 
对你付出了这么多 
你却没有感动过.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

I was looking out of the window at the sunset while the car was moving...and I realised it was so beautiful. The wispy clouds (probably cirrus...) and the sunset is something I don't usually notice. Especially in Singapore. The only way I usually relieve stress is through spending my time on the net, with other things like parks and nature and even just moving my lazy butt and going out all forgotten... pssh.

And on the way back from dinner I was looking at a blinking light in the sky and I thought it was an aeroplane...  and it turned out to be a star. and that's when I started to notice other faint stars in the sky too. I usually just see an empty sky due to the huge light pollution of Singapore. It's really such a waste, especially when like half the streetlights can be turned off (like alternate street lights) to save energy and possibly to let us see stars better.

pfft. We don't have picnics cos it's too hot in the day, we don't go to the parks cos it's usually too humid, and we don't even stargaze cos there's little/no stars to see anyway.

Singapore is definitely a really beautiful city.
haha what a cute couple man. "Go save up your money and buy that car/motorcycle!" "By the time I save up that amount your bus would be here!" naiseeee

work and revision is piling up again. pssh. time to finish geog and focus on math and bioooo

Monday, June 4, 2012

I seem to keep going back to oldies. brings me back to my early childhood when I used to listen to these songs O.O