This is song is so old yet so awesome

I suddenly had the urge to go through all my emails from 2006. Those 3678 emails that I didn't bother to sort out according to folders. And I realised how much of an asshole I was, how much of a slacker I was, and how flawed I was through Yr 1-4 (not so much JC 'cause I filed most of the emails I got so nvr saw them haha).

And I've got many random emails: from like Jason telling me to donate some biscuits if not we will get screwed from trng, to people raging at me, to Ivan being a retard and (almost) screwing up our first project together (which I obviously saved), and to people sending me encouraging emails, telling me to push on no matter how incompetent I was at that time. And of course, lots of chain emails about dumb things.

Those emails are just mere words but they bring back so many memories, whether good or bad ones.


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And I spent too much time on this. Back to bio. sigh why must there be a lecture test on Tues argh

Don't even know why I try. Always looking at the damn ipad playing some childish and stupid game. It's like she has no concern over my future or my life. Forget it. I give up making the effort to connect.

It was so dreary that day. Seeing things I never want to see again, like all the grime and dirt that stuck to the plastic bags of forsaken items and the multitude of insects like cockroaches that crawled out of the various crevices when we started cleaning them out. I know it's for a good cause. Yet I cannot steel myself enough to just accept such a situation nonchalantly... I've been too privileged that I will never ever get used to seeing such things.

It was drizzling the whole day. I was feeling even more down than usual. Yet when we went to a nearby pavilion for a brief respite, I became slightly happier. The silly antics of the children fooling around kept us, or at least me, entetained. And when I started talking to that person beside me, I felt like I was sharing a personal connection. That person would probably never ever read this, but she made my day. She made my day just by being willing to sit with me, in comfortable silence.

Things are starting to get more hectic for me again. Which is great. It feels weird without Geog lectures to go to anymore, and no more PW. And H3 is starting soon so I need to be at NUS like 2 times every week. And CE01 too so I will be at Whampoa every week. And with SATs coming, I don't even know why I'm wasting my time on the internet. Weekends are the times to turn hardworking and chiong. gogogogogogo

Those feelings...need to clear my mind. mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn