It's so funny how someone can become unimportant to you so easily
maybe it's because we constantly make conscious decisions who to surround ourselves with

and how easily others purposefully exclude you
probably because you aren't that important anyway

and how things that were once clear can become so vague in just an instant
perhaps it just wasn't meant to be

still hurts though.
no one said it wouldn't. Just because it felt like the right decision doesn't mean it wouldn't bite back. 

So we are back to where we were just a year ago. I guess I can't expect more from you anyway. You are flawed, and so am I, but don't make me responsible for your missteps.

That's just irresponsible.

But what can I expect anyway, from someone like you? I'm glad we aren't friends anymore (are we? I don't even know). There's only so much a person can take. And I'm tired of maintaining this stupid friendship with you being immature about every single problem that comes up.

I hate it that sometimes I do irrational things, and I find it hard to justify my actions, even decide what my next step would be.

But life isn't that simple anyway, is it? If I were able to break everything down and make decisions in a snap that would make it so much easier but I can't.

With every decision comes insecurity and fear. But each one I take also gives me hope.

And I love that.

It's funny how I can vote in the local Cambridge election but not back in Singapore.

It's when you travel that you see things from a different perspective. A deceptively disembodied one. One that seems to tell you who you are and who you aren't, and who the people who are travelling around you really are as well.

Because it's when you spend almost every waking moment with a person/some people that you finally understand that sometimes the fundamental things that a friendship is founded on can mean different to different people.

Some things I will never condone I have seen. Some things they do not they may have seen in me.

But it is through this that we grow. Through this that we are reminded no one is perfect, and misunderstandings only deepen when we avoid one another.

And sometimes, it is through this that you both realise you just don't click that well with each other.