Does it mean something if she seems to get prettier everytime I see her? My mind seems to be playing tricks on me...

overwhelmed by hmk and it's like the 2nd proper week of school. pffft. I'm not mixing well with my class at all. Still sticking to my OG and my RI friends... sigh it's like sec 1 all over again, just that you know a few ppl. RA's getting to me. so many stuff to do sian. guess I will just press on and hope for the best. last minute mugging for bioO...will it work?

no one sees the tears I have in my eyes. does anyone really understand me? Is what's happening to my life what I really want? Do they care?

/How do people remain so optimistic. "Keep a smile on your face and keep going", they always say. "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going".

Am I good enough? Or am I not? Things seem to get tougher as life goes on... "There's no free meal in this world", they say. "Aim for the stars". At least, you will hit the moon.

Life's complicated. It seems that lies told for a really long time, even to yourself, become real after a while. I will just keep on smiling, and press on. For my spirit will never be crushed.

You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is like an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.

haha shit now I just have to not lose faith in myself.

So I haven't blogged in a while. First two days in junior college was really boring...just full of talks which I feel is quite useless (at least right now).

I somehow got into biora. Never Really expected it, considering the sheer number of Bio ra from sec 4 trying for it again in j1. Don't really know if I made the right choice to enter biora though. It seems that the longer I stay in school, the higher chance there is that I end up in a class where I'm gonna get owned by everyone else in class and become last. Zzz. Why can't life just be a little easier for me(why must ppl be so smart?!) the girl who scored 294 for psle is also in biora. Talks about a tough year ahead man.

The programme for iGeo is finally starting. Excused from the first half of school on Monday. Not that I will miss anything.

Still have no idea what cca I should join. Service clubs? Entre? Or other random clubs like recas?

No idea. Now I have to really start to brush up on my geog and bio (not really brush up for bio, more like try to catch up with the rest of the class).

Ggfied.

On a side note, I don't really see how an iPad is all that useful. Used it to type this post out, and it's not really that enjoyable an experience (probably cos there isn't a proper blogger app for the iPad). It's user friendly, and easy to use, but without flash it's quite useless to watch vids. Let's just hope html5 gets adopted by sites soon. Plus I have to put everything in iTunes first before I can put it on the iPad. Ultra restrictive. Why can't it be open like android, but still user friendly? That would be tablets and phones I would buy.

went for the chickenpox jab today. First time I'm not scared of a jab cos I'm somewhat mentally prepared haha
It really felt like an ant bite...but now my left arm feels weak. And according to the doctor it's a live vaccine, which means I will fall sick tonight. sian

oh and I found a flaw in my argument about humans I made a few posts back. A mentally unsound guy might not be satisfied with his environment...does that make him not human? >.<

tard.

got EAGLES award thing today. and saw a few ppl on fb posting about it. Not something I'm really proud of, but it's a free 200 dollars (I think). woooo

going to immunise myself against chickenpox tomorrow. can't believe I survived 16 years without getting the virus when almost everyone I know got it already -.- I remember telling myself I would get it in p6, and then procrastinated... and sec 1-3 hols were kinda busy.

I have a feeling that half my friends don't really know me all that well. I have this different side of me I show to different groups of people... in class, in cca, even on overseas school trips... which one is my true self? I don't know anymore haha. What happened to the guy that sat quietly in class and you know, just worked really hard for homework? I don't even do them anymore. And something Kai Yan, my RC batchmate, told me during oip really struck me. "Wah, this is the first time seeing you like that". Even a friend that I've known for 4 years is shocked at my new 'face' during trips. guess I'm just a true introvert.

I feel that this is really good http://jerrybrito.org/post/6114304704/top-ten-myths-about-introverts The top 10 myths about introverts, and so so so true. I think I'm just loosening up the closer I get to people.