You can never forget someone or something that was the reason you smiled. I missed how we used to talk everyday, and how I was able to just open up so easily and say anything on my mind. But once you make a decision, you have to live with it, even if you may regret it.

Many people wish they didn't do or say certain things. I wish that I were better so it wouldn't happen that way.

There are always things in life that you wish didn't happen. But they make you who you are. You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you I guess.

The right people will make time for you, and the wrong ones will just make excuses.

“There are times in our lives when we have to realize our past is precisely what it is, and we cannot change it. But we can change the story we tell ourselves about it, and by doing that, we can change the future.”
― Eleanor Brown

What matters is not what others think of you, but whether you can live with who you are. And since I can't with some parts of myself, I will change that and become a better person. 

I guess you only realise who is important when you leave huh. And it's even worse when you can't even speak to them anymore.

But I guess that's life. Choices you took because you felt they were the right ones come back to bite you once in a while. All because you weren't strong enough.

In the end, I'm just not good enough. Trying to always be a better person each day has always been my personal goal, but I seem to be lost with so many conflicting aims clouding my thinking.

I seem to be living a life of contradictions, but maybe it is gaining this awareness that is what people call 'growing up'.

I have flaws which I have long accepted as part of my personality, but that should never have been the case. How can such gross shortcomings be dismissed as part of my personality, a character trait when it clearly can be changed?

Trying so hard not to lose my temper. Just had a pretty great day and you came along and soured it. I'm sincere when I admit my faults, and I try to accept yours too, but you use that against me? Oh wow I'm so sorry I'm not perfect like you.

And if that's who you really are then I've totally misjudged you.

I guess it takes two hands to clap, and it's just really tough when the other party is so unenthusiastic about the whole thing.

Am I giving up too easily or wise in doing so? Guess I will never know. But sometimes things don't go your way and I need to accept that, instead of trying to get my way all the time.