I'm feeling down. I'm an introvert. What do I do? I reflected. And you know what I found out? I found out...

THAT MY BATCH ROCKS. Yes, we all rock in one way or another. Yes, we screw up from time to time, but so what. We still pwn.

Everyone is special in one way or another. Everyone contributes a bright spark to the unit. Everyone can make a difference. YOU can make a difference.

Feeling down. What's the point of working so hard? You get shit. Nice big fat pieces of shit.


Life is so godam unfair. wow. You get to be a leader. You know what we have learnt so far? How to not screw up. And then? We still screw up. "Nothing is ever perfect, just the extent its screwed up". Wow. I'm loving it. Every moment.

Look at the other UGs. Sometimes going backwards is going forwards.

I am too forgetful nowadays. Dammit.

3 pillars of strength.

maybe.

Racial Harmony

A Chinese funeral and a Malay wedding nearly side by side - a true testimony of racial harmony in Singapore?

I am listening to the Malay songs blasted from the Malay wedding now. Frankly, they aren't that bad. Well, at least I won't cower under the bed thinking it is the worst torture ever heard to my ears. But thinking deeper, what is racial harmony?

Is it really just a bunch of people, from the different races, smiling and holding hands, tolerating one another? Race blind? Personally, I think that's bulls**t. Of course, that does not mean I am racist. My friends from other races are as capable or if not more capable than me.

On the other hand, it is quite obvious we prefer our own race. It is not that I hate the other races, I just like my own better.

I was reading this book (quite controversial and contorted really) called the Malay Dilemma by Mahathir Bin Mohammad. I have not read it all, but the first few chapters already have accusations that Chinese are to blame for the exodus of Malays in the Malaysian economy. And he cites the laid back lifestyle of Malays compared to the hard and harsh environment of ancient china as the deciding factor of the races. True, perhaps. Malays being ousted out of their own land and country. Then there is the genetics of Malays, etc. I digress.

My main point is: is there ever true racial harmony? To me, nope. The highest level of relationship between 2 races is tolerance, or at most friendship. No harmony, because it is built in within us that people of our own 'tribe' is better than that of others.

Pretty much forgot what I wanted to post. But nvm.


I was pondering. Love is a great power. But many people nowadays may think that love is the only great force that keeps the whole lumbering human machinery together. That's flawed. Other things like willpower is so much more power.

There is a saying called 'mind over matter'. I guess that already sums up what I want to put across.

In our sexed up world, everyone is trying to get a gf/bf/gay friend wdv, but should we even do it in the first place?

I guess those in a relationship right now will whack me on the head, saying that I cannot comment since I nvr experienced it before. But just let me continue before u kill me.

Investing time into love now, is pretty much literally throwing money into the water and hoping your wish comes true. It just does not happen. How many teenage loves actually survive jc, ns and uni? maybe only 5%.

Most of the time you get a good first impression of that person from that one event, and 'fall in love'. But have you actually found out his true personality? He might seem nice, but he can also be an irresponsible prick in the ass.


of course, that does not mean everything is doomed for failure. (diplomatic answer, thank you very much). Life is unpredictable, so who knows? The next person that sends you an sms or talks to you might eventually become your special one.

Sometimes, I wonder why people dwell so much on seemingly perfect stories like romances with good endings. How many people truly go through that in their life? Maybe everyone experiences it when you meet the one for him/her, but cos I nvr went thru it, I dunno.

Maybe love is that great.

Like those 2 posts the days before. Will there even be anyone experiencing that? Someone whose senses are dulled, only to have his soul being 'reignited' by his significant other?

Maybe. Life is, afterall, full of surprises.

Life is unfair.

What I experience, and what others experience, are so different.

And I feel annoyed when I feel underprivileged.

I should instead feel so fortunate, compared to the thousands of others so much worse off than me.

But I don't.

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Such an unfathomable face, I never know what your thoughts are. Happy, sad, angry, disappointed? I never know.

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If only.