Third time in my life I feel like an utter failure. Absolute total failure. Can't even meet the minimum requirements... so damn lousy.
It always seems like everytime I'm down, it's always friends that console me and my closest ones, my parents, that put me down. Every time I do well in anything there's no response or an "you should do even better", and when I do badly it's a "why did you do so badly?" There's never any encouragement, never any simple words like " you did well", or even a cursory "great job". Just looks of disapproval.
Guess it's just another life's lesson. That going to your family for support is a big fat lie. That you should just ignore their cruel words and focus on yourself. Cos ultimately, I'm living for myself, not them. I just need to come to terms with this hard fact.
Go boss! See things in a different spotlight, a different perspective and you'll know that they meant well for you. Words of encouragement, well, maybe that's the language they are not good at, however always keep in mind that parents will always have a heart and mind for their child, no matter how worse they are. :D You're blessed to have a group of awesome friends that give you a pat on your back so woohoo, treasure them! All the best in "A" level and your life! :D
ReplyDeleteHi Yee Ling (new name huh)! didn't see your comment until now... yeah I thought about stuff and I'm over all that already. thanks for the concern haha all the best to you too :)
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