Go on. Bury yourself in work. It has always been the only thing you do decently in anyways.

I have never put in my very best into something I did in life, probably one of many weaknesses. It's so weird, feeling like giving up so easily after facing a few difficulties. Everytime I looked at how an athlete can keep cool under such immense pressure in a game, or even if he/she lost, kept going and kept telling himself/herself that he/she was gonna win eventually. That kind of perseverance, self-motivation is something I see myself starting to lack even more and more.

Is it just fatigue? Or just that it's so easy to give up and move on? I laughed at how JW gave up so easily. I guess I'm no better, if not worse. So what if your heart hurts? You never had any right to say anything anyway.

Life's great.

time to focus, not to be distracted.

so I gather from my belated birthday card from my class (thanks! :D) that I'm funny, sincere and gay -.- pffft image bad ttm T.T haha

lots of stuff to post.

got my geog prize again. 3 years out of 4. not bad...but always 2nd zz. dam lame.
I've always thought that my profiling of ISFJ was wrong, that I was an ISTJ. I guess that I really do use my feelings to decide more than my thoughts, though I still tend to rationalise things alot (argh personality conflict!). It's like how education wants to make you a rational being while I just want to just do what I feel. pfft.

Apparently SFs are background leaders...I guess that means saigang warriors haha. shit.

Ms Ang, my GP teacher analysed my signature yesterday and said that I was a conflicted (again!T.T) in terms of how I feel about my family, cos I am thankful that they do so much for me, yet sometimes feel that they are holding me back a little. And the fact that I don't like people knowing my thought processes (dam true :O) and just want people to know what's the final decision I make.

Handwriting analysis is scary man. sia la.





Right now I'm still conflicted about it. sigh complicated. why are you so dumb

bored to death mugging bio and chem. I need to talk. to real people. not myself.

I realise I tend to talk to myself alot in my head. die liao going insane haha

Thursday's OG outing was super fun. Time passes too fast in the holidays dammit. Went to jiaxing's house to lepak, and the house was freaking huge haha (though on hindsight, it should be the same size as my house, after clearing all the clutter oops). Block catching, halo, project gotham racing, wii and cards with our usual murderer    really made my day. Especially the green star thing and uber nice choccake for my bday! haha thanks kibs ivan and mengmeng for their hardwork making the star, and jiaxing for keeping (and probably eating) the remaining half of the cake xP BUT I didn't like the caking part tbh. haha spoilsport sia. too bad. To me it's a waste of food to smear precious delicious cake onto someone's face X.X

Isn't it quite sad that this is like one of the few times friends actually celebrate my birthday >.< I think I alr posted about this a few days ago... still sad though.

Haha I really think my OG is awesome! All the other OGs are (more or less) dead liao. At least ours still meets up... 

Chem is killing me. topic 1 seems easy until I try the questions and go wtf. So dead for the lecture test on Monday. 

And I haven't mugged bio yet. huge topic on biomolecules. shit......

And geog homework hasnt been done.

So I shall focus on my studies right now and not think about other *useless* stuff. yup :/