"What are your choices when someone puts a gun to your head?"

"What are you talking about? You do what they say or they shoot you."

"WRONG. You take the gun, or you pull out a bigger one. Or, you call their bluff. Or, you do any one of a hundred and forty six other things." - Harvey Specter, Suits. 

So many false dilemmas in the world which mislead us. But they disappear when we realise that we have so many choices if we just dare to be different. 

Too much on my mind, like I'm gonna drown soon sigh.

been having pretty elaborate dreams lately. I think I can write a novel as my second career.

Going for my first supervision tomorrow with my essay wrecked by her comments T.T

Need to get back to proper writing 

Found a renewed love for running. Can't run as fast as I could in army (actually a very long way from that), but running has always given me a sense of mortality. The struggled breaths, the aching of my muscles and fogging up of my glasses is something I encounter too little nowadays. 

It reminds me to do what I need to do and want to do, instead of just wasting my time away. It reminds me that life is a struggle, but willpower will allow me to pull through. It reminds me that in this long hard slog, there are always people that will come to my mind to push me on. I might not feature on theirs, but it is from them I will draw strength from. 

More importantly though, I need to burn some calories.

Rude. Why do I even bother

You can never forget someone or something that was the reason you smiled. I missed how we used to talk everyday, and how I was able to just open up so easily and say anything on my mind. But once you make a decision, you have to live with it, even if you may regret it.

Many people wish they didn't do or say certain things. I wish that I were better so it wouldn't happen that way.

There are always things in life that you wish didn't happen. But they make you who you are. You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you I guess.