Today it dawned on me what history is. I was looking through msn histories with some of my friends. I always thought that history is to look at past mistakes, so we do not make the same one again. I guess thats true, but now I feel more importantly is the interpretation of the subject at that point in time. What did he/she think? How did he/she feel? And from there, find the logical flow to his/her decision. Most people decide through logic, no doubt with a mix of feelings and biasedness, but logic nonetheless. If you can understand what he/she felt, saw, then u can understand what circumstances forced that decision.

Most decisions were deemed the best one at that point in time. No sane person would want to choose a wrong one that would mark his personal or even country's downfall.

So i guess that understanding people's intentions behind decisions is the more important role of history. That's my view.

Yea, my blogs pretty dead.

I guess its overdue to blog about RCYC. A great learning experience, I finally experienced how good pms are supposed to be. Hopefully I can translate that into something that the pms can use in the unit in the future.

Made many friends along the way. To me, the RCYC campfire was the best I've ever had. That's a real campfire man, not the ones I had before.

I finally understand why there are people who love campfires.

And I got into National Geographic Competition! (I think its Geobee) Yes! Going to California in June, representing Singapore, dam cool. And only 3 people in Singapore get to do that. Plus the trip is sponsored by MOE ( I think), which makes it even better.

Lots of stuff coming up. Events and programmes to plan, stuff to study...

extra la.

I went to Nex @ Serangoon Central yesterday. The new mall in extremely near my house. To say the least, it was super crowded. Supposedly they estimated 20 000 people would come every day, and instead 70 000 people came. So yeah. It was utter hell trying to even find a seat in their 2 foodcourts.

And then there was this stupid old woman who clung on to her seat, although it was apparent she and her family has finished eating. She told her son to continue sitting while my parents and I waited for 15 minutes. In the end we got pissed at her so we just went somewhere else to eat.

It was really frustrating not to go up there and scold her.

Is that why people say Singaporeans lack social graces?

I was wondering about going back in time. Are we allowed to change our past if we can travel back in time, and if so, will it affect our future? There's always that paradox of what happens if you kill your mum when she hasn't given birth to you? Will you cease to exist?

But perhaps we have long assumed the concept of free will. This may all already be predetermined, so you will never be able to kill your mother back in the past for example, simply because you exist. Or perhaps time travel is not possible.

Went to Nex today, the new shopping mall at Serangoon Interchange for lunch at Sushi Tei. Ate till my stomach was really full of good tasting stuff.

I eventually used my Starbucks vouchers, and got mocha frappuchino (I think). It was sort of worth the wait, but a bit sweet for my liking. Don't think I will spend $5.50 on a cup of that in the near future.

We were walking around the mall exploring, and I don't really know how to put this, but I saw this woman in her 30s who looked really scared of her surroundings (lots of people?). It was like looking at a timid puppy who was looking for the nearest exit. Maybe she had a mental condition or something. No one else noticed. It is like real life, isn't it? When everyone is in a happy mood, who actually notices people who are moodier than the rest? No one. It was just lucky I noticed her.

But so what? So what if I saw her like that? It is not as if I helped her or anything. Is that how modern society works? The cold indifference to the person on the street. It has been noted that the the bigger the crowd around you when you get robbed or slashed or something, the less chance of a person doing anything. Cos the perceived responsibility to do something is spread thinner among the crowd, so they are less obliged to do something.

Need to think this a bit more. currently rambling. :(

The time I studied the most/hardest was from Primary 1 to 2, believe it or not. Not PSLE. Not Secondary school (except maybe that period preparing for geo challenge).

Then, I would reach home at 6pm, cos I would be at a childcare centre since both my parents were working. y Dad would go through the day's homework and any other stuff with me for 1h. To me, it was boring as hell. But it was pretty easy on me too. I could ask my Dad for anything I didn't know about, so the answers in my homework were correct most of the time.

I still remember revising for exams in Primary School. So different from now. Flip through the file if bothered to file your worksheets, and you are done. Simple and easy.

Don't even know why I am posting this. Maybe cos I am reminiscing the past. Again.

Got an ipod touch won from a competition a few weeks back. After tinkering around with it, it is not bad, but not great. Maybe cos its just 2nd gen. Maybe I'm that kind of person that does treasure his gadgets after he gets them. You get bored of them after a while, right?

I was looking at the new galaxy tab, something like a ipad. It smaller much easier to hold with one hand, but there are still some issues that have to settle, like apps not scaling nicely to the screen. I have been wondering whether I should get one (either tab or ipad or something similar). Some of my friends say it is hard to integrate into your life, and I guess that is true.

I was thinking about the other day about rewards for good results. I never got anything even if I aced some exam/test/quiz/whatever. It doesn't particularly matter to me, well cos I get to buy stuff I want during birthdays and christmas. Yea, I get presents.

But I was wondering, even if your parents don't reward you, even though it is clearly stated in that good parenting book they borrowed (yep, it actually is stated in those kind of books), does it matter? It is our job to do well, or try to anyway.

Never went for uip campfire. Was it good? All I saw from the pics on fb is a fashion show, which is kind of unappealing to me.

I saw many people there awkwardly posing on stage. i guess they are like me, who pretty much shun the stage. It is ok if it in front of people you know, like your unit, but with guests and all, it just doesn't cut it for me.

I stumbled upon a youtube musician who is surprisingly quite good. Search Christina Grimmie. Great stuff.

2 minutes made all the difference.

Super Super long time since I posted. Partly cos the internet at boarding is so unreliable and slowwww.

Learnt quite a bit from SLC. Thing is, dunno if it will even come useful, as the lessons to me are just seeds planted in your mind. Whether they germinate is a another matter.

NTU is DAM FAR FROM MY HOUSE. yep. I went to NTU for HSSRP (Humanities Social Science Research Programme), to present my team's research project to some teachers and mentors/professors, and then I had to find my way back to RI. Took abt 1h and 10 mins or more I think. For a guy who lives in Serangoon with Bishan 2 MRT stations away, that is far.

My results...lets just say its not stellar. near average of my class. Which the highest in the level. Which kind of rocks cos I am in the best class. But then it makes me look average. bleh. I guess I am average.

During SLC, we ask our principal whether RI was in the endless chase for better results, or focusing on the character development of students. And a bunch of other questions of the school's direction. And to me, from all the vague and beating around the bush responses, the school so called exco does not know where we want to head.

On the other hand, how can we improve? By heaping more work and more extra activities for students?

Oh, and the sec 3s next year will have an exciting time. 6 mths of DMP in year 4, which is cool, but I hope it does not pull down the results of RJC in time to come...

I actually assessed ecareers.sg to find out what was best for my personality. And results such as autmaton engineers, financial advisors and stuff popped out. I guess its rather I have somewaht the passion, but the skills are seriously lacking.

Go into biotech? Go to engineering? Go to business/finance? Go to green tech? I can't decide. Ride on global trends, or contribute to what Singapore really lacks currently (engineers, if you do not know)?

Chewing on some yang shen right now. So bitter bark like chinese tonic that supposedly quenches thirst and boosts yang energy or yin, really dunno and something about good health or thereabouts. At least it really helps with the thirst quenching part. Somehow I dont feel thirsty after chewing a piece of that.

Just checked my audience stats. I have people from Russia, Ukraine and Poland coming to blog other than Singaporeans? o.O I guess lots of people use proxies situated in those countries...

Going for a gruelling hike/expedition on Tuesday as part of SLC, hope I dont die along the way. 5 more days to RIRC VON camp...

Lol played of dota with Ivan yesterday. I was rusty, but still better than Ivan, who dies everytime he met with an insane ai. And then the game stopped abruptly, cos my internet dced I think.

I think I am rambling in this post, so I will end off by saying I started to read chinese newspapers. Gonna read all the papers I get next year, as well as every Sunday. Hope my chinese standard actually improves...

Packing for SL camp. another 2 and 1/2 weeks in boarding... I actually thought I wouldn't have to go back to that place...oh well.

Won an ipod touch yesterday in SP's global citizen challenge. Pretty cool. Quite fun really, especially when dressing up Sam Chua. Should have taken a pic man xD

And then there's RE to do, and rc camp's coming up. hectic days again...

Went to LAN on Monday, played some tf2. Super fun. I actually went to download steam today to try to convince my mum to buy tf2 for me, but well she didnt allow cos you need to give the credit card number and other stuff.

I guess I will have to drop by popular or somewhere one day to go get my hands on tf2. Come to think of it, will I even have time to play? And I usually regret after buying stuff, looking at the box of cd roms i bought as a child. Maybe I am too pampered. heh.

At least those kids games will be put to good use. Given to my cousin, some spoiled brat. I think she's 2 or 3 yrs old. Doesn't matter. Most likely wont see her soon.

Quite a lot of stuff I want to do, but hindered by the stupid sore eye i caught. And then I have to go back to boarding for the student leader camp. for 2 and a half weeks. sian....

I like the atmosphere at boarding, with friends and all, but then again. It's stifling sometimes, having your friends around you. You can never concentrate and do something, like study. So in term 3 I didn't do most of my homework, and well slept in class more than I would. I think that will account for the screwed up results I'm gonna get back in a few days. bleh.

Time to put the eyedrop thingy on my right eye again. Hopefully I recover be4 tmr.

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Walking super close to ancient chinese tombstones, even stepping on them...this was what I did today.


Hopefully the spirits will bless me, not come find me o.O

It was interesting looking at all those humongous tombs of our forefathers, when today you will most likely get cremated and be left in peace in a small little urn. Yea, pretty cool.

Also interesting was the API people. They are brothers. Dedicating your time to map out the long-forgotten cemetery, is pretty amazing. But something I don't have to courage to do so, especially when they explore it at night too (creepy).

In the afternoon, I went for some fengshui tour, looking at the UOB (or OUB?) building and then the suntec city. And since fengshui is a pseudo-science, its just super smoky. It pretty much how you argue, using subjective 'facts' instead of objective ones. And its quite cool, cos you get to make your own interpretation. So when they told us to analyse some building layout, Hui Jun, Soelwin, Zheng Wei and I basically smoked our way through.

Yea, thats basically my whole saturday.

The opposite gender is just weird and incomprehensible.

A team comprises of individual who are not equal in talents, experiences, knowledge or education but equal to commitment.

What makes us Singaporean?

I went for some DMP named 'More than the Singapore Story', which I didnt know what it was all about before I signed up.

Anyway, it got me to think what to be truly Singaporean truly means. What represents us? Many would definitely jump to say that we are multi racial, mutli religious society, but will mosques, churches or temples cut it? They might represent that particular religion, sure, but they do not represent us as a whole.

So what abt the merlion? A social construct of 'practical people', from some poem in some notes I got, it seems to supposedly represent us. And it is of great success, at least in terms of bringing tourists in. But in Singapore, response is lukewarm. The legend about the merlion going to sentosa every yr to look after Singapura, then a storm ravaging sg, then it using magical powers to stop it is totally FALSE, something we created.

But then again, does it really matter? Its lion head represents our roots (Singapura), and the fish tail our port origins. Perhaps it also sheds light on what Singapore is, an artificial construct. The whole city is artificially created, with only 5% of forest left today, none of it untouched. Without technology, we can say goodbye to Singapore. We get our water and food almost totally from overseas, even our exams is based on the UK cambridge N, O and A standards ( I think)

So what is truly Singaporean? Singlish? ugh. Merlion? o.O... What do you think?

Think before you look before you look before you leap.

I just learnt a little more about my dad today. he great at carpentry. lol. He's gonna make a sort of make shift altar for my grandparents so my parents and my relatives can pray and present offerings to my grandparents at the columbarium. It quite basic really, just foldable legs with a wooden platform.

But I admire his way of improvisation. When we were about to put the screws in place (I was sort of observing/helping), we found out that they were too long for the board, so they would stick out. I thought of buying smaller screws, but then my dad decided to dismantle a wooden box he found somewhere in the house to so that we add additional layers of wood at the legs to match the length of the screws. and it worked., of course.


I was thinking about red cross in the morning while sitting in the car, which was going to the epson repair centre cos my printer died. And i rmbred Deo saying that the other schools had imba cadets we cannot match. And I agree. I can't speak for the rest, but I was a downright lousy cadet. I didn't really speak up, didn't volunteer myself much, and yea. Basically a shadow unless being forced to participate. So I don't know. Maybe the whole 'everyone can be a leader thing' in RI has lead to us not being good followers. Cos to me a good cadet is ultimately a good follower. Or maybe it is just me that got affected.

Life is just unfair. Some things you really want to get, but always seem just that bit away from you. and some things you don't even want, yet keep coming back to you.


Why did I take RA? Till this day, I'm not that sure. We take the same paper with RP for goodness sake. But I guess at least having a slack teacher allows me not to do homework, which is great.


I really need to know more people. Confining myself to RI and Red Cross is just making it such a small social circle...

I just found out that there is something called blogroll in the design tab. lol. so i added some connections. after so long.

with 3 links, thats pretty miserable. But i guess I'm just too I too ask for others to link me.


People might be thinking that I will post abt FAC.

That would be right. We screwed up, but I think the problem stemmed from how we conducted trainings. I think its time to change it a little. Hopefully the change my batch brings will solve the problem.

Hopefully.

Last week of boarding! Last week till FACOM too...

I realise I have so much to learn from my batch mates. So many of them quietly working hard for the unit. What I've done is so inadequate compared to what they do. 

Anyway, I think my revision of eoys is slowly starting. Hopefully I will do better than myes.

I hate it when people complain and not take into others' feelings. You know that your attitude or working mtd sucks, but you change it. You expect others to understand, and compromise with you? Wishful thinking.

Yes. We may be insensitive freaks. But why are we so? I guess we already have the answer.

just my wishful thinking.

Sometimes I just feel like blowing up.

YOG

Im going for my 2nd last day of YOG FAD tmr. It passed so fast. I cannot blog about what I did/saw in YOG as it is supposedly prohibited, but I guess the only way to describe it was that I saw many people there...but I only noticed one... Doubt I will meet with that person again.

Today, Hui Jun and I treated someone. And I realised what Ambrose Sir said was right. We as teenagers cant really do much for Singapore. RCY only mentally prepares us for the future, hence it falls under psychological defense.

When I treated that little boy, I found out how little I know about first aid. I know the theory, wash the wound then dress it to prevent it from bleeding profusely ( the boy had a bleeding), but when I really met with the situation, I was pretty much abit lost. It was only under the guidance of the injured boy's mother and another kind stranger that we managed to treat the boy so fast.

I guess, the saying that there are always things to learn is true.

Had an emo start to the day. Watched a movie called If Only, which I thought was supposed to have a happy ending. But the guy died. ...stupid script.

I got infected by the patriotism again. NDP songs are so catchy. I was playing an NDP's song on youtube, where I saw this comment about NS, that Singapore is the only democratic country that practices slavery, forcing ppl to go NS.

I mean wtf.

Yes, NS gives us men a disadvantage when we go back to work. You go for NS for 2 yrs, while women go work, and by the time you get back, oops she's your boss.

Yep. But so what? yea, I'm not that into patriotism myself, but it is something we must do. I will do it just to protect my family and friends. So I have come to the conclusion that the guy who posted that comment is a poor loser with no friends or family. sad la.

Chinese

Many of us students always complain that Chinese sucks (well most of the English-educated do). But instead of always complaining, why not look at the root of the problem?

I recently read an article about an American teaching English in Taiwan. When he first started, he found it very easy to teach, since the students there were well-behaved and quiet, so interaction with the teacher was frowned upon. He later found out that it was because they were used to rote learning, just copying down notes and then using it in the exam.

He had to make the learning environment less formal, in order for the students to become less inhibited.

I think we can also use this in our context. With the MOE initiative of "Teach less, Learn More", Singapore's education policy has steered away from rote learning, to interaction based learning. However, this is not reflected in Chinese, since most teachers come from overseas, mainly China, whose education policy compared to ours is somewhat backward, though improving quickly.

Furthermore, these teachers do not know much about Singapore. Our unique culture is world's apart from what they experienced in China, hence this accentuated gap between teacher and student. I remember enjoying Chinese in p5 and p6, because the teacher that taught me was a local-born one, and was able to mould the lessons to meet our needs.

Foreign talent is a cornerstone to our rapidly growing economy. However, education of the young is also extremely important, and I feel it would be much better if locals would be left to handle this heavy responsibility.

Oh hi. YOG and NDP today. Quite boring. Only the teacher-student games were quite interesting.

Im wondering, 10 years dowen the road, will I even remember that Singapore was the 1st country to host the YOG? I hope so, cos if I don't, it means its a fluke.

Which I hope won't happen. Singapore is after all supposed to be one of the most efficient countries in the world.

Don't feel like posting for the next few days. So bye blog.

I'm feeling down. I'm an introvert. What do I do? I reflected. And you know what I found out? I found out...

THAT MY BATCH ROCKS. Yes, we all rock in one way or another. Yes, we screw up from time to time, but so what. We still pwn.

Everyone is special in one way or another. Everyone contributes a bright spark to the unit. Everyone can make a difference. YOU can make a difference.

Feeling down. What's the point of working so hard? You get shit. Nice big fat pieces of shit.


Life is so godam unfair. wow. You get to be a leader. You know what we have learnt so far? How to not screw up. And then? We still screw up. "Nothing is ever perfect, just the extent its screwed up". Wow. I'm loving it. Every moment.

Look at the other UGs. Sometimes going backwards is going forwards.

I am too forgetful nowadays. Dammit.

3 pillars of strength.

maybe.

Racial Harmony

A Chinese funeral and a Malay wedding nearly side by side - a true testimony of racial harmony in Singapore?

I am listening to the Malay songs blasted from the Malay wedding now. Frankly, they aren't that bad. Well, at least I won't cower under the bed thinking it is the worst torture ever heard to my ears. But thinking deeper, what is racial harmony?

Is it really just a bunch of people, from the different races, smiling and holding hands, tolerating one another? Race blind? Personally, I think that's bulls**t. Of course, that does not mean I am racist. My friends from other races are as capable or if not more capable than me.

On the other hand, it is quite obvious we prefer our own race. It is not that I hate the other races, I just like my own better.

I was reading this book (quite controversial and contorted really) called the Malay Dilemma by Mahathir Bin Mohammad. I have not read it all, but the first few chapters already have accusations that Chinese are to blame for the exodus of Malays in the Malaysian economy. And he cites the laid back lifestyle of Malays compared to the hard and harsh environment of ancient china as the deciding factor of the races. True, perhaps. Malays being ousted out of their own land and country. Then there is the genetics of Malays, etc. I digress.

My main point is: is there ever true racial harmony? To me, nope. The highest level of relationship between 2 races is tolerance, or at most friendship. No harmony, because it is built in within us that people of our own 'tribe' is better than that of others.

Pretty much forgot what I wanted to post. But nvm.


I was pondering. Love is a great power. But many people nowadays may think that love is the only great force that keeps the whole lumbering human machinery together. That's flawed. Other things like willpower is so much more power.

There is a saying called 'mind over matter'. I guess that already sums up what I want to put across.

In our sexed up world, everyone is trying to get a gf/bf/gay friend wdv, but should we even do it in the first place?

I guess those in a relationship right now will whack me on the head, saying that I cannot comment since I nvr experienced it before. But just let me continue before u kill me.

Investing time into love now, is pretty much literally throwing money into the water and hoping your wish comes true. It just does not happen. How many teenage loves actually survive jc, ns and uni? maybe only 5%.

Most of the time you get a good first impression of that person from that one event, and 'fall in love'. But have you actually found out his true personality? He might seem nice, but he can also be an irresponsible prick in the ass.


of course, that does not mean everything is doomed for failure. (diplomatic answer, thank you very much). Life is unpredictable, so who knows? The next person that sends you an sms or talks to you might eventually become your special one.

Sometimes, I wonder why people dwell so much on seemingly perfect stories like romances with good endings. How many people truly go through that in their life? Maybe everyone experiences it when you meet the one for him/her, but cos I nvr went thru it, I dunno.

Maybe love is that great.

Like those 2 posts the days before. Will there even be anyone experiencing that? Someone whose senses are dulled, only to have his soul being 'reignited' by his significant other?

Maybe. Life is, afterall, full of surprises.

Life is unfair.

What I experience, and what others experience, are so different.

And I feel annoyed when I feel underprivileged.

I should instead feel so fortunate, compared to the thousands of others so much worse off than me.

But I don't.

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Such an unfathomable face, I never know what your thoughts are. Happy, sad, angry, disappointed? I never know.

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If only.

Hectic weeks ahead...

Hope I won't lose steam as fast as last term.

Unquotable quotes (they suck so bad you cringe)

The true path to victory is never a straight one. It is always obstructed by many people, sometimes even yourself.

What you do when you are 3 determines what you do in your life. (When I was 3, I always slept after lunch in my Aunt's house. I still do. ._.)

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Played 14 dota games in the last 3 days. lost all. FML. - Han Sheng

"Good morning yesterday, You wake up and time has slipped away. Suddenly it's hard to find, the memories you left behind, Remember, do you remember?" - Paul Anka, Times of Your Life




Cant think of anything else....anyone wants to contribute?

6 hats

My father showed me this book by Edward Debono a few years back, called the 6 thinking hats. The author uses 6 thinking hats to categorise our mindset towards things, allowing us to look at everything from 6 different point of view and then solve the problem if any. A good read.

Thinking is human's most important skill. It might be the only thing that seperates us from a plant, so we must continually hone it.

I guess leadership comes under thinking too. Without thinking, how do you even lead? Unless you are talking about the blind leading the blind, there is no way this will happen. So I guess lateral thinking is a good skill for leaders.

Hopefully during camp my batch saw me as wearing the sky-blue hat...instead of not wearing any....

stuff i have to do

1. read duzhe
2. maths
3. cl proj
4. geog
5. phys
6. some pt
7. sec 1 pn
8. erp

6pak!

Just woke up after 15h of sleep. It was one of the only camps I truly enjoyed. I guess I rather be the guy telling ppl what to do then doing it myself (hehe!).

I think I did a pretty good job. Suma told me the night before camp that it will be pretty screwed cos we are inexperienced...It came out true. But our batch worked well and co operated with each other... damage control FTW!

Great experience. Now I know what to expect. I learnt more abt myself and more abt my batch. Lets do our best for the next few batch thingies!

One more thing.

Let coldness envelop your face, yet allow heat to radiate from your heart. Exude confidence. Heads up. Visualise. Remember the shared vision and mission. Work as one. Inspire by leading. Inspire by encouraging. Inspire by simply telling them that 'I have faith in you'.



Leadership. Endless.

Tofu, anyone?

Are we really becoming 'tofu' batches, that focus more on fun than discipline? A healthy balance between those 2 core aspects of a UG...is it really a never ending tipping of the balancing scale, and it will never stay horizontal?

An old woman, son in jail, daughter-in-law running away with another man, and grandson left behind in primary school...what will she do? Sucide? Run away too? No. She will get a job, no matter how ashamed, how tired, how hopeless she feels...she will perservere, for her son and grandson's sake. That is resilience. Where does she get that from? I guess her childhood and 'tumultuous' teenage years may play a huge role.

When teenagers meet a problem, what do they do? From what I see, the first thing they do is utter an expletive. But after that, they realise that running away is not an option. Facing the problem, head on, maybe results in disastrous consequences and massive screw ups, but that is the only way humans learn. Through screw ups. As an egoistic species, only mistakes can remind us of our incompetence, pushing us to strive towards something better (?).

Aura. Mannerism that can be learnt, or just natural? I think it is the same debate as nurture vs nature... Is it controlled arrogance? Fine, perhaps arrongance is an inappropriate word...controlled proudness? Heads up, a facade for others to see, is that part of what we are supposed to do once you hit a certain level of maturity? When do we break that cold mask? I do not know the answer to that yet...


Tofu. Discipline. Fun. Ego. Aura.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LwS5jZmbSJA

some indian singing baby by bieber. dam funny. go watch =D

The feeling of meeting someone new.

Great.

Epic...

Fail.


I am so incapable.

Revive.

Dead blog. Dead blog. Revive!

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alright this is retarded.
I do not have much stuff to blog about. (I forgot what I was thinking about yesterday...)
I remember vaguely it is something about elitism. English is slowly creeping back into my mind after so many years of being abandoned...

Yes, RS is leaving. 30th June. I do not know whether it is a blessing or a curse. Well, it all depends on my new relief teacher. Hopefully he/she can teach.

LMC came back after a '4 month course'. She still sucks. I wonder why our school even bothers to send a sucky teacher for a course to 'enrich' her. As Melvin said : "Maybe she is only good at planning, not good at teaching!" Possible? I guess so.

Oh yea, we have 2 china xchange students in our class. Melvin is doing an epic fail job as an ambassador, but that is expected. Luther is MUCH better. Melvin, you SUCK (as usual).

Don't think I have anything to post today. Sometimes I wonder what I can actually do to help others...seems like I'm not particuarly good at anything, except maybe procrastination (yes, I know it is BAD).

P.S. I not emo like Hui Jun. refer to his blog if you know what his blog is. If you don't, too bad.

Last post before MYE I guess...

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
~Marianne Williamson

Even though I may not believe in a higher being, I feel that this quote is pretty true. Go figure out about the meaning of this quote to yourself people. =D

Sudden.

I just realised something.


I'm no longer in kindergarden, where I didnt know what was going on; I am not in P3, where I cried over bad results and still got first; I am not in P4, where I was addicted to a gba ( yes, the gba with no backlight); I am not in P5-6, where I was overshadowed by one guy for the 2 years; I am not in Sec 1, where I started working hard again; I am not in sec 2, when I fell to the vices of arrogance.

I am in Sec 3 now.

Another total change in studying style. I am actually mugging for the first time in my life.

Change is never bad. It is the only thing that is constant in nature. It is what we must and will adapt to. 

hm... talking about that... maybe that's how we as a species achieved sentinence? A sudden revelation of inteeligence, of the knowledge that intimately distinguish ourselves for other animals, yet the line between 'them' and 'us' are becoming more and more blurred?

Maybe we are just thinking too much. We might just be freaks controlled by aliens that are laughing at us as I type. Or we could just be as ignorant as the 'others', and our ignorance is blinding us from that fact. We will never know.

Sentinence could have just been an adaptation to our harsh environment. To conquer new habitats, to improve our standard of living, to triumph as 'king' over all other living things on Earth... is intelligence the tool that is used to do these? We may never know.

Change is a constant in nature. We might all turn retarded tomorrow and I will not be able to read my post. We may never know.

Fences

http://www.stardock.com/products/fences/

Fences looks dam coool on my desktop. Try it out!

amung us?

Anyone know how to get the html code from the amung us site? I cant seem to even click on that website...

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You'll taste its fragrance, sweetness, sourness and bitterness, but in the end, what's left at the tip of your lips is always the taste of sourness and bitterness...

Physics

Kinematics sucks.

#13

Man has always redefined boundaries. But can we ever push the boundaries in time and life?

#12

I close my eyes and see the universe resting on the palm of my hands, but I only need one small little blue planet...

YAY!

First time in 2-3 weeks I have minimal homework AND come home early! yipeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Update.

Pahoehoe.

The word that summed up our journey in Geochallenge. We moved like the wind in geotrail (did I mention we also looked hot? LOL), mowing down everything in our way. Surprisingly, our geotunes got 2nd! Yay! We rock =D

Gd job to RIRC for winning 1st in drama! Dunno what happened to dance, but I know we struted our stuff up there on stage! *clap clap* couldnt come to support as i had my own comp. heh.

Gd job everyone!

Money Money Money MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney MoneyMoney

I just picked up 20 cents from the classroom that we were debriefed. I just realised I've been picking up quite a bit over these years. nearly 2 bucks? Not bad for free cash. lol.








Quote of the day: "seriously I'm epic." Guess who ;)

他善于克制自己的情绪，冷静地对待一切问题。











Stare into the bottom of your soul.

Some random thoughts...

Which is more important: studies or having a 'life' or even teenage love? Some may argue that studies are definitely more important, citing facts such as teenage love being short-lived and studies having a much greater impact in one's future. But is that really true? A person who is happier may be more productive and may even study harder. Fat hope? Maybe. Most ppl are likely to neglect their studies once they find their 'special one'.

After all, as we all know, in life there is no right or wrong. I guess it is up to the person to decide what is right.

Diao...I'm so random.

School

I wake up at 6.30am, go to school till 9.00pm, and sleep at 11.30pm. That is nearly 14hours in school. That srsly sucks.

Maybe I should just stay in boarding now.

Bleh

Bad Day

It is 10.32 pm and I am still doing some random red cross stuff. Argh!!!!!! I have a bad bout of flu...At least the medicine from my doctor worked. My fever subsided. But now I have a sore throat. .-. Maybe I should have gone for a flu jab after all. Ah well, I'm too lazy to do this kind of stuff anyway.

Beep.

Just found out my friend was my enemy today. The world's a small place, and a school's a minature one. I'm stuck with this guy for another 2 years. Let's see who dies first. hehe

Anyway, I was thinking about competitition mugging. I am in Geog RA (yes, I'm not stupid) and I joined this competition and the first round is a pen and paper round. Obviously, you mug and mug and mug for it. Is that rote learning? My friend is mugging for a test and he's cramming for it. Isn't that rote learning? Teachers teach us concepts, true, but when the test comes, we still have to have the basic knowledge, not just concepts. Students are busy people (or lazy like me :P) and in the end, we memorise the knowledge in order to do well for the test.


Ah well, that's my 2 cents worth.

Till later

Bedok!

Went to bedok reservoir to run with my parents. Its so near to our house, like 5 mins trip only. I realised there how much I lost touch with nature. Looking at my computer for nearly 4 months straight, its great to go back to nature. I felt suprisingly great after the run. Hmm, maybe running isn't so bad afterall. Any computer geek like me definitely has to go out for fresh air. You won't regret it. As my father said, " wearing your sports shoes is the first step to a fit body'. LOL.


Till later!

first post

First post on my blog, after 4-5 years of my personal one?

Brings back memories just by going to blogger.com...

Some guy asked me to go get a blog, so here it is! If there is anything I suddenly feel like posting, it will be here.


Till later