This week hasn't been such a great one for me. Don't know why I keep getting annoyed by my section mates, who move too bloody slow and we end up always being last in the company to do anything, such as for meals and all. It's not like I'm a person that always chiongs; I'm lazy too. Though I still can't help but get annoyed at people who have a serious lack of efficiency. Oh well.

Got my letter that more or less seals my future for the next 10 years. Got the letter that told me explicitly I got rejected from med. At least it's closure, no more need for me to second guess if I'm on the waiting list or what not.

It was disappointing really. I did my best trying to get into med school, going for an internship to find out what life's like, researching on it, and writing my personal statement as honestly as possible. I think sometimes life just doesn't let you have what you want.

Although I don't really know (and I never will) if med school was what I wanted in the first place. I still remember how focussed I was on going overseas on a scholarship just before the interview for the scholarship, and how elated I was when I got it. I think it's part of my personality, always yearning for something else. So fickle minded as always haha

I think the result for med school was disappointing not only because I didn't get in, but more importantly because people I think deserved to didn't and people I think didn't deserve to did. Although I'm not qualified to judge who will be a good doctor in the future, there are still some people whom I will never ask for a diagnosis if I were to fall ill. They just seem too unreliable for such a profession.

That being said, what's done is done. Life is still never about one's choices alone, for others will determine your future along the way. Fight for your dreams, only if your are lucky enough that people help you fulfil them (sounds soooooo depressing but somewhat true I think).

Anyway, I'm more or less set on going to the UK to study this year. Don't know if I can handle studying at Cambridge alone. Guess I have no choice though. Time to start excelling once more after wasting away in army. That brings me to my thoughts on NS, though that's a post for another day.